The combination of exhaustion and sadness make for great writing. It’s an odd combination that stirs up the writing soul, but it lends itself to marvelous insight and beautifully written pieces that speak from the soul, to the soul.
I have never been able to write quite “right” when things seem to be moving along in perfect harmony, maybe because I am so caught up in the bliss of the moments and the feelings of contentment that I would rather revel in these moments, which are so difficult to come by nowadays. I prefer happiness and ignorant bliss to the latter, sadness and exhaustion, but I prefer my ability and scope of writing when I am feeling less than peachy. I suppose that’s why it is said that writing is a process. This term is becoming more and more redundant as I journey forth, but it’s true. It’s a process of discovering what works for me and figuring out how to make it work more often and with more oomph. It’s a process of being able to take it all in, the good, the bad and the fluffy stuff in-between and making it all work in harmony. Thus far, I have been able to channel in to my writing when I am in the middle fluffy phases of life and in the so called bad phases, the good is another story altogether.
I suppose there is some logic behind what prompts every writer to be able to write. Recently I have read some incredible stories about writers and thought, “Geez-they seem so bloody happy all the time, must be nice.” After the second book, which was full of positive affirmations and incredible stories of the process of writing in one’s journey, I realized they had the same thing in common; they were happy, now. They certainly didn’t begin that way but have found a way to make happiness work in their creative lives. The process, it’s necessary to go through these phases to discover how to make every realm of emotion, every piece of our lives fit in harmony with what we do.
I know I will get to the point where I can write well when I am happy, it will come. For now, I will bask in the warmth of what my mind, soul and emotions come up with when I am less than that.